My world

I was up this morning so I decided to go to the donut shop and get the kids some breakfast before they woke up. As I was driving I got a little emotional thinking about what if something happened to me tomorrow during my surgery. I know that's nothing but the devil, but it did pop in my head. So then I started thinking about my kids and how much I love them and how hard I am on them. All this time I have had in my head that I want my kids to be as perfect as possible; although I am very aware that no one can be or is perfect. Then I started telling myself that I am hard on them because I want them to grow up and be intelligent, successful black men. Today I realized I am hard on them because I am uptight. Yes I said it I AM UPTIGHT! Truth is I am hard on my kids, because I don't know how to relax and let stuff go and I feel like things need to be in order all the time. That is definitely not something I want my kids to take with them into adulthood. So today, I will hug and kiss my kids even more than before, because I want them to know that they are truly a blessing to me. I can honestly say that I have the best little boys in the world, they each bring something very special and important to the table. Jaylen my 11 year old is the negotiator the one always trying to keep the peace, has a smile that will just melt your heart. Davon my 9 year old is the protector and the thinker, he may be the quietest one but trust me those wheels in his head are going 100 mph, he doesn't play when it comes to his family. Last but not least there is Corey my 6 year old or as I like to call him Mr. Personality. Everybody loves Corey, he is truly a people person, he loves people and will talk to anyone. So intelligent for his young age and a ladies man. He can be in a room full of people he don't know and he will come out with everyone being his friend. These are just a few of the things I love about my kids and a few things that I am jealous of as well. God has really blessed me with three little miracles. So if I never get married or have anymore children, I can say without a doubt that my life is already complete!