Open heart

My heart has been closed for so long that I was to the point that I wasn't sure if I knew how to let anyone back in. As a child my mama would get upset with my daddy and would tell me not to get married, men are stupid, marriage is a waste of time. Those were things that would be in the back of my mind in my relationships. Now at 32 it's time for me to get with the program and stop with the foolishness. I know that all men aren't worth my time and vice versa, but something I had to ask myself was what are some reasons for me to want to open my heart and try again; especially after being hurt and broken down like I was just 8 months ago.This is not something I took lightly and I put a lot of thought and prayer into it. There's not a doubt in my mind that my future husband is in my life now (in some form), I just need to get my mind right so I do not miss out on my blessing. I know in some forms I am ready to be a Mrs. but I know there is one area I am lacking and I need to work on that. I want to be complete before the next phase comes, I do not want to be 75%; I need to be 100%. So with that being said, I will continue to grow and better myself so when I do get to the next stage of my life I can enjoy it.